This project is about the creation of beauty through the concept of violence and pain.
The mediums I’ve used are focused on the atrezzo, which is handmade and made of fresh rose 
petals, a bridal veil, the location and the type of photography. 
The dress itself is one of the most important things of the whole project: the idea comes of 
different topics of my country and my own family: the violence, how the Spanish Civil War 
affected my family (in this case, my grandmother, which I will explain down below), the women 
who belonged and were called “Las trece Rosas” (The Thirteen Flowers) and the book “Bodas de 
Sangre” (Blood Weddings) by Spanish poet murdered at this period, Federico García Lorca.
Before speaking more about this photography project, I want to do a brief explanation of the 
reason why I’ve made it.
My entire life has always been surrounded by violence, pain and culture. Each one (in an artistic 
way) I did, led me to the same spot: the way I projected my inner problems and suffering 
through art, and I couldn’t help myself but do that. 
That’s when I realized what was about the entire plot: my art talked about the mourning, about 
that dark side I had because of the events that happened to me in the past. 
However, when all became crystal clear to me, I decided to take “advantage” of this and use it 
for my own purposes: auto-ethnography as a way of picturing my demons. And photography 
was the most accurate thing to do so. 
But now, going back to the concept, I’d like to explain a few things:
My referent was my grandmother, she never failed to listen to me while talking about my 
projects. She was a victim of the Spanish Civil War, and so my family. That’s something they 
always taught me, how big was the suffering through the years. 
She was a fashion designer and learned by herself, as most of the things she knew. She was 
always passionate about things, about culture and art.
It reminded me a lot of what happened to a lot of people. Exactly, she handed me a book of 
García Lorca, and I fell in love with the dramatic scenes he wrote. I felt connected to it and I 
could relate somehow. 
The beauty and the pain.


SANGRE DE FLORES

This project is about the creation of beauty through the concept of violence and pain.
The mediums I’ve used are focused on the atrezzo, which is handmade and made of fresh rose 
petals, a bridal veil, the location and the type of photography. 
The dress itself is one of the most important things of the whole project: the idea comes of 
different topics of my country and my own family: the violence, how the Spanish Civil War 
affected my family (in this case, my grandmother, which I will explain down below), the women 
who belonged and were called “Las trece Rosas” (The Thirteen Flowers) and the book “Bodas de 
Sangre” (Blood Weddings) by Spanish poet murdered at this period, Federico García Lorca.
Before speaking more about this photography project, I want to do a brief explanation of the 
reason why I’ve made it.
My entire life has always been surrounded by violence, pain and culture. Each one (in an artistic 
way) I did, led me to the same spot: the way I projected my inner problems and suffering 
through art, and I couldn’t help myself but do that. 
That’s when I realized what was about the entire plot: my art talked about the mourning, about 
that dark side I had because of the events that happened to me in the past. 
However, when all became crystal clear to me, I decided to take “advantage” of this and use it 
for my own purposes: auto-ethnography as a way of picturing my demons. And photography 
was the most accurate thing to do so. 
But now, going back to the concept, I’d like to explain a few things:
My referent was my grandmother, she never failed to listen to me while talking about my 
projects. She was a victim of the Spanish Civil War, and so my family. That’s something they 
always taught me, how big was the suffering through the years. 
She was a fashion designer and learned by herself, as most of the things she knew. She was 
always passionate about things, about culture and art.
It reminded me a lot of what happened to a lot of people. Exactly, she handed me a book of 
García Lorca, and I fell in love with the dramatic scenes he wrote. I felt connected to it and I 
could relate somehow. 
The beauty and the pain.

WHATSERNAME is a piece of video art in which I mostly try to reflect my teenager years (including my own experience through ethnography and violence. I use archive videos so I can relate to the main character all time.
In this case, I wanted to show this experience through the Jesus of Suburbia (2004) video and story by Green Day; and the conference Speech on Blame and Violence (2000) by Marylin Manson, in which he speaks about the death of Brian Deneke.

WHATSERNAME

La Paura del Buio is a piece of videoart that talks about youth, violence and all the troubles you 
must go through because of who you are. 
It’s a reflection of the reality we are living in. How things work lately and how we’ve reached a 
point of no return between what’s wrong and what’s right. 
I also talk about the white teenagers that are “accepted” by society. They don’t have any 
problem because they are not part of any collective. They are not scared of walking down the 
street alone at night or at certain areas because they are exactly what’s causing the problem.
This is not an essay to blame, but from the point of view of auto-ethnography, it certainly is a 
problem that adults don’t want to assume with those children. 
Why being part of a collective, no matter if it’s about your sexual orientation, if you’re POC, if 
you don’t reach the standards of beauty or clothing, is one most common cause of death?
Adults don’t want to take any responsibility, they are playing a game in which we, the youth 
from the collectives, are the toys. And it is not fair at all. We live, we laugh, we cry, we want to 
repair the mistakes they’ve made, but still the blame is on us. 
How can you blame the death of a guy to him when he’s been murdered because of being part 
of the LGTBI+ community or because how he looks? How can you not blame the person that did 
it? 
Why is always victim carrying a fault that it’s not theirs?
What’s wrong with the system?


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